do i have to trade in all my cards?

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there are things in the world that can never be ours.. just because of some simple truths…

1. they are bad for us..

2. they already belong to someone else..

3. we already lost the opportunity to claim them as our own..

and..

4. they are not just meant to be ours..

Question: .. what if I'm caught up with wanting something i clearly can’t have?

You may trade in all your cards for want you want..

NOTE: But in the end.. maybe you’ll find out that it’s not something that you really need..

i'm still on the side on "No Regrets"

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there are things we regret… words we wish had gone unsaid, starts that have bitter endings, chances we threw away, roads we should have never taken, signs we didn’t see, hearts we hurt needlessly and wounds we wish we could mend…

but life gets that much harder, the past cannot be rewritten but it can make us stronger.

..for every change life has thrown me..

..for every break in my heart..

..for every scar..

..some pages were turned..

..some bridges were burned..

..I HAVE LESSONS LEARNED.. =)

spontaneous decisions lead us to the City of Pines

Two weeks after my batch mates’ trip to Baguio, we had our family trip to Pampanga. It was never planned. It just happened that my Tita Lily (mom’s sister) purchased a house-and-lot and they want to see it and visit my Tito Pabling as well. My mom and my cousins asked me to join them and I did. Oh, thank God I did! :D I almost back-out due to conflict of schedule, it was supposed to be Saturday-to-Sunday but was moved to Friday night-to-Saturday. I told my mom that I won’t be able to join them. They’d leave at 6pm while I’d arrive at 8pm. To be able to join them, I took a Friday leave.

Friday came and we left. We arrived at Angeles City at past 10:00 spent the entire night chatting then woke up early to catch up Hot Air Balloon Festival at Clark before going to Mabalacat.

(from left) DJ, Te Gigi, Me, Erica & Mama

Unfortunately, we weren’t able to watch Hot Air balloons, so we went off to SM Clark then went to visit our Tito Abling's family in Mabalacat.

look at my Lola (a.k.a Blue Riding Hood) eating ice cream at SM Clark. It's her favorite.

After eating our late lunch, again, we went to Clark to catch up the afternoon event at the festival. We were able to watch Cessna plane exhibition, RP/Malaysian/UK paragliding exhibition and of course, the Hot Air Balloon Night Glow.

Hot Air Balloon Night Glow

We had our dinner at Tito Abling’s. Tita Fel (his wife) made us a sumptuous dinner. By the way, she celebrated her birthday last Valentine's day. Happy Birthday Tita Fel!

Yummy dinner! Oh and FYI, the lunch served was knocked out! :D

It wasn’t planned though; we’re supposed to leave Saturday and go back to Batangas but we ended up attending the Sunday mass at Our Lady of Manaoag Church in Pangasinan.

(from left) Erica, Te Gigi, Mama, Me, Te Amy & DJ - posing in front of Our Lady of Manaoag

Nitro Family - Te Amy, DJ, Kuya Tutoy & Jom

And… (drum roll) the most spontaneous trip, BAGUIO! After visiting Our Lady of Manaoag, Tito Henry (Tita Lily’s husband) offered to tour us to the City of Pines.

DJ, Te Gigi, Me & Erica

The only photo of Tito Abeth (middle) during the entire trip. Laging absent sa pikturan e.

Kudos to Tito Henry! He even treated us to a late lunch at Rose Bowl near Burnham Park.

(from left) Tita Doring, Tita Lily, Tito Henry, Mama, Erica

The trip to Pampanga brought us to Pangasinan and Baguio. This escapade was our HAPPIEST FAMILY TRIP ever! :)

Next trip to Pampanga, come April! This time, my cousins who weren’t able to join (because of their children’s school activities) will join us. Ang sarap nga pala mang-inggit sa mga hindi nakasama, now I know the feeling! :)

We arrived in Batangas at almost 2:00AM, and I left for Manila at 5:00AM to go to work. How's that? Walang sawa sa byahe! We're all tired and sleepy but nevertheless, we had so much fun! Hope it won't be the last. :)

P.S. Pictures were posted at these links: Pampanga Trip, Our Lady of Manaog, City of Pines.

never been to the city of Pines.

Good friends miss each other and what they only want is to spend some time together and bring back the old times, catch up and laugh as if it's just yesterday that they've been away. And that's what my high school classmates, IV-Aries`04, planned. They'll be getting together for the week-ends. Their destination would be Baguio City. Sadly, I couldn't be with them as much as I wanted to. Oh LOSER!!! How's that? We're having our corporate planning tomorrow, which is also the day when they'll be leaving for Baguio. Yeah, I won't be able to join them. :( Just this moment, Xandra asked me if I don't have plans of joining them. Naiinggit na ako hindi pa man sila umaalis!!! Hahaha. Oh well.. you guys take care and have fun. Maybe next time, I'll be with you.

i fell in love with books, but i was brokenhearted over and over again.

I couldn't say that I am a book worm myself, cause that would be overrated. A "novel lover" may not be bad if I may say so. I've been reading a bunch from way back when. Though my interests are limited to fictions (which include psychological thrillers, detective/mystery novels and light love stories) and a little of non-fictions, still there's a room to explore other topics. Been reading books by books and authors by authors. How on earth did these authors' imagination lead to their stories is one thing I've always thought after finishing one. Sometimes, I even wonder if I could be like them - writers in their own genres. Uhm.. it left me with nothing to say but "uhhh well, I didn't even try writing a short one. So probably, it's better if I just continue what I am comfortable of... and that's reading!" Yeah I know, I am not that only person who admires Nicholas Sparks. There are millions of my kind all over the planet. Many of you knew him well more than I do. Why`d I picked him as my favorite among the so-many authors I liked? (Not to mention my love for J.K. Rowling, cause it's another story) Cause he's the one who made me moved! I've read a number of his books already and have picked my most favorite among them which is "The Wedding". Sparks' writings were all over the movies but I honestly just watched two, I guess. I recommend that you read first the book before going through its movie because it's way better than silver screen. Almost all of his books I've read made my eyes red and misty. Every book he has written is a masterpiece in it's own way. His books moved me, made me cry buckets, made me smile and made me realize some things through his words.

Just yesterday, I finished his non-fiction-kind-of-autobiography book, "Three Weeks with my Brother". I swear that I am still in awe right at this moment. This book filled my eyes with tears chapter by chapter. I learned about his childhood and how he became a millionaire unexpectedly because of writing. He had a LOT in his life, a series of ups and downs. Now, I know where his books came from. I really can't explain how I felt for him while reading the book. You should find out yourself. :)

Oh, I still have five Sparks' to read. Might as well continue my reading.

-jamittle-
01252011

just today

 

 

Just today

I'll think of you

 

Just today

I'll reminisce the good times

 

Just today

I'd cherish the love

 

Just today

I'd miss your hugs

 

Because today of every year

Never will I forget...

It's your day

 

 

 

- jamittLe -

the story on bouquet of flowers

I was caught staring at my past, present and future all at once. The dare is for them to grab a hold of me. What's sad is that they've chosen to hold something else instead of me. So what's the point of me, choosing between them as well?

How can I entrust my heart to anyone of them, when I already know that they’ll only let it go? How can I be cared for when all I can see are those hands trying to grab nameless flowers?

From the very start, I didn’t expect my past to run forward and catch up. My past has passed. He’s now living as another’s present.

The only one I expected to grab the moment is my present. But like my past, I’ve never seen any intentions of saving me from the fall. After all the words he has spoken, it all flashed right through my mind. I thought there’ll be reciprocal actions. I was then, wrong! That very moment, I was looking beyond what I’ve seen and concluded that actions are way louder than those sweet spoken words.

How about my future? He represents the things I would actually expect in life. But then, he’s given me the idea that my future would never be different at all. And that, it’s just the same path I’m taking.

My past, my present and my future… They don’t differ!

Realizations came after that very incident. I found myself at the crossroads. I began to think if I should continue living with the present or let it be another past?

Here, in this crossroads, I will decide whether to take the same path where I can only guess that all that happened repeats itself. Or I will take a road less travelled? The road in which I don’t exactly know what is at stake. If I take a new path, I would never know if it will lead me again to the future I’m pertaining to. Otherwise, there’ll be someone new.

Just the way the author – Robert Frost took a less travelled road and that has made all the difference. I’ll take the risk of walking through a new path. This journey will surprise me of the things not long known to me but somehow, I can say, would bring a difference in my life.

I’ll expect nothing but to meet a new future. A future not planned but is destined for me. It is my fate that will bring me to someone real and right.

But when can I have the strength to let go of my present and find my new future? `Cause by now, my heart is still stronger than my will.

-jamittle-

09/30/09