My playlist for the one that got away...

“The one that got away” is an ex who has an exalted place among your past loves. They are the one you focus about. They are the one who floats to the surface of your thoughts when you are trying to sleep, the one you can still picture a future with — in a parallel universe. You just aren’t sure whether it’s the universe you’re supposed to exist in or whether you belong right here in reality. - Emily Madriga

This struck me deep. And I swear, I can't put into words what I want to say. Uhm, okay... This may be too late to say. We both know that whatever's written here will not change the fact that we're both happily married now. It's just that I had thought that maybe we could've made it together as lovers back then if it weren't because of some things beyond our control - fate. Despite the fact that you were'nt my EX, you're the only one I could think of who fits the description. For me, you're the one that got away. It was just not meant to be.

 

We never had any closure. Though we remained friends after our "almost-relationship", we never talked about it. Our past was left hanging there - it's like we left a cocoon and never looked back. Until life happened, and burnt the remaining bridge between.

 

This is my only medium to finally talk to you, through the songs I listen to 'cause the lyrics speak the words I failed to say to you...

 
The One that Got Away by Katy Perry. In another life, I would be your girl. We'd keep all our promises, be us against the world. In another life, I would make you stay.
- Just maybe... I dunno. God only knows what's in store for us in another life.

Still by Brian McKnight. I still think about you, I still dream about you.

- Yeah, you would sometimes enter my mind without any reason at all. Seldom, there was you in my dream. We really can't control that, aren't we? I wonder if I, too, ever crossed your mind?

Walk Away by Paula DeAnda. I can't explain this feeling, I think about it everyday and even though we've moved on, it gets so hard to walk away.

- I know for sure you still have that soft spot in my heart. That I still hope you're happy and  I pray for you always. Even if the love has long been gone.

 
Shoulda, Woulda, Coulda by Brian McKnight. You could've been a better man I needed but we know we can't go back 'cause now it's just too late.
- We can never tell what would've happened years back. You could've been better than my past lovers but you weren't consistent back then.  

So Cold by Paula DeAnda. Ain't it cold when the one you love lets you go, and you got no one to hold, yeah yeah, that's the way you made me feel.
- During the last months, I felt ignored and taken for granted. You chose to set me aside, and made me an option - not your priority.

Almost by Tamia. Can you tell me how can one miss what she never had. How could I reminisce when there is no past. How could I have memories being happy with you, boy. Can someone tell me how can this be? How could my mind pull up incidents, recall dates and times that never happened. How could we celebrate love that's too late. And how could I really mean the words I'm about to say? I miss the times that we almost shared, I miss the love that was almost there... I miss the love that we never had. What happened to us? We were almost there...
- We almost had it... almost...

Almost is Never Enough by Ariana Grande (with Nathan Sykes). I'd like to say we gave it a try, I'd like to blame it all on life. Maybe we just weren't right, but that's a lie, that's a lie. And we can deny it as much as we want. But in time our feelings will show. 'Cause sooner or later we'll wonder why we gave up, the truth is everyone knows. Almost, almost is never enough, so close to being inlove. If I would've known that you wanted me, the way I wanted you, then maybe we wouldn't be two worlds apart but right here in each other's arms.
- Hmmmm. need I say more?
 

Gotta Move on by Tamia.  Baby let me know if you want me, I really want to know if you want me, and if don't tell me something.. I gotta move on.
- I've been asking myself if you really did care. You were inconsistent. There were days when you were so caring and so sweet. Yet, sometimes you were snub. We never had the chance to talk... until we drifted apart.
 

Broken Strings by James Morrison. Oh, it tears me up, i tried to hold on but it hurts too much. I tried to forgive but it was not enough to make it all okay. We can't play on broken strings. You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel. I can't tell you something that ain't real. Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse. How can I give anymore? When I love you a little less than before.
- Circumstances made me gave up. I didn't hold on tighter... I, then, replaced you because I had to. I realized that you won't be there to catch my fall.
 

Separated by Usher. If love was a sport, we're not on the same team... you and I were destined to lose... Boy, I know we had some good times. It's sad to know we gotta say goodbye. You know how much i loved you I can't deny. Can't say we didn't try to make it work for you and I. I know it hurt so much but it's best for us. Somewhere along this windy road, we lost the trust... and we're better off separated.
- The moment I realized that you don't differ from my pasts, I decided to look for someone who will love me more than you could do. That was the best for us. Because as you can see now, we're both happy with our own, separate lives.

Someone's Always Saying Goodbye By Allona. Someone's always saying goodbye. I believe it hurts when we cry. Don't you know, parting's never so easy. And with all the achings inside. I believe some hearts won't survive, trying hard to pretend that they're gonna be fine.
- Yes, that was never easy. To let go and move on. But we did it. We have both moved on. To be together isn't destined for us. We're just fated to love and get hurt and find the one we will truly love.


Funny, I still can remember the songs you used to play for me, too. On how you randomly posted status or sms me song titles like Single, Beer, Go on Girl, Girl, Sana di na lang... We're both like that, we communicate through songs and I'm glad we had that unique way of telling each other's feelings. Sometimes, I miss it. I miss the way we used to be. Whenever I hear the song Ulan by Eraserheads, I can't help but remember the moment when we're standing together under the rain, sharing an umbrella. Oh, the past. Sorry, can't help but reminisce.

Moving on, I would like to thank you for all you've done years back. I wanted to apologize for all the pains and heartaches I've caused you (if there's any? baka naman nag-assume lang ako). I didn't think you cried for me because I knew you're tough. No doubt, our paths will always intertwine. I would love to see you smile or just nod and that's enough for me to know that we're good. Just one smile... and I'l be glad to return the favor.

I hope in time we could be back to being friends, not strangers. And we could both say together the phrase, "Let bygones be bygones". :)
 

 

- jamittle -

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